After a Trillion Years, I Am Starting My Blog Again...

 

(This is not even a recent photo, think: three months ago.)

        I will be quite honest, it also took me a trillion years to come up with this title. As it suggests, yes! After a trillion, maybe a gazillion years, I am finally reopening my blog. 

        I know that I write this a lot. In fact, I have probably written and posted "I am starting my blog again!" about five times over in my life now, across three different blogs I have attempted running since 2014, starting around the time my high school Journalism teacher made regular blogging a class requirement. I know, I should have listened! By then, if I had maybe just followed the blog post regimen that he had suggested to all 45 of us in that classroom that fateful day, this would not be a problem. I probably would have written hundreds upon hundreds of blog posts by now, about anything and everything. Blogging was something I particularly enjoyed back in high school, and at times, was my escape back in the day. I can fondly remember those times I was very eager to get a turn to use our shared computer just so I can start writing, and when my hour was up and I had to give up the computer to either one of my siblings for another two hours, I eagerly waited again so I could keep writing.

        These days, though, we do not have to share computers anymore as we all have our own. That being said, I really should not have an excuse not to write.

        It is honestly also taking me probably a trillion years to write this one blog post, with my brain telling me over and over again that I am either "taking too long" or that I "should probably stop because I am losing track of what to say, anyway." Honestly, that might have been one of the things that pulled me back from writing and posting more blogs in the first place: my utter, utter lack of self-confidence. I keep telling myself, "I have other things to do" or that even though I do really want to keep writing, I just lack the momentum to do so.

        "What is the point?"

        Back then, it was as simple as following a schedule and posting a minimum of 50 blog posts in one month. It did not matter much what I had to say, I just put anything in my blog and called it a day. I wish things were as easy as that today. Nowadays, it is like I do not even know exactly what to write! Don't get me wrong, I have a lot of ideas, I just don't know where to start, when to do it, and how to keep a momentum going when it's there. One day, I think I want to write a movie review, and the next day, I want to write about a new album that just came out. On some days, it's an art challenge, and on other days, it's a personal anecdote. The next thing I know, I just keep on thinking about what to write and never get on to writing.

        So I guess today was one of those days where I just knew I wanted to write, but did not know where to start, what to say, what to even write about, and it was then that I figured something out. It probably already occurred to me once or twice before, but I never got around to actually pushing myself to do this, and push, I did.

        I thought, "why don't I just start?"

        Start. Without even thinking about it, I knew I just had to start somewhere, and I guess that is where we are right now. I don't even have an outline for this, you know? I'm just writing as I usually would, keeping my tone as if I were just talking to someone, anyone out there. I guess I realized I just wanted to write, without caring so much about what to do. I wanted to write without the boundaries of my own expectations--the ropes I tie and hold myself down with, thinking I will never achieve much. I just really wanted to write, because playing with letters and words had been something I eventually grew to love and enjoy, to the point of craving the satisfaction of finishing a new piece of work whenever I got to. I wanted to write for the sake of it, for the sake of creation, for the sake of producing art in a carefree manner without strings attached. How pretty is that?

        From hereon out, this is how we'll roll. 

        I suppose I will figure professionalism out along the way, but for now, here is where I start. First and foremost, I am a writer, and it is here where I will continue writing. Here, we will explore life, culture, the world and its intricacies together, and I will take you with me through not-so-walls of text and cheesy jokes. You'll even get to know me as we go.

        How editorial, yes, maybe even a little poetic. I know I should perhaps tone that down a little, but I guess that is just how I generally unleash my thoughts into this small little world of text and pixels I call my own. 

        Not so formal, but at least you know it's me. You can note it down.